Lover, the lord has left us.

MUSIC: ALEXISONFIRE
MOOD: CONFUSED

*Sigh*

I've had my fair share of doubt about whether or not studying graphic design was a good desicion, so I'm getting kind of tired of constantly having to wonder if this is really what I want to do with my life.

In a way I feel like I'm wasting time. I want to learn for crying out loud, and that's not exactly what we're doing. I would say it's like being thrown into the water whilst not knowing how to swim at all, but then my teachers would probably say it's like riding the bicycle, you just get on there and you peddle, you don't need an explanation for that.

Maybe I'm being impatient (okay I am being impatient) but I just wish I'd see a frikkin light and stop going back and forth about this.
I have an excuse though. I'm a libra.

I need a break. Three more weeks until feedback week. Four more weeks till vacation. I'm going to continue tidying my room (I started in August, I never finished), work my ass off and study like I've never studied before.

Jesus help me.